Bar Stool Brilliance

Unfortunatly though, I actually adhere to this intoxicating school of thought more frequently.There is something so liberating about avoiding common sense and functional functionalism.

Pondering the Perpetual Procrastination Antidote

So accomplishments for this week include nothing also known as nil and bordering on for naught.

Also found this old quote( manually glittered for the think pink initiative) on a paper snipping that was actually on my computer at my longest cubicle curriculum stay.It was originally part of a jewish thought thing that someone forwarded me from his Rabbi.
I always did like Pirkei Avos.Its awesome for peppering conversations with ,especially with religious folks who dont expect you to be peppering your thoughts and comments with Ethics of the Fathers quoting......The featured quote though could work nicely for procrastination issues.
The question is how to go about tweaking the prescription so that obtaining this level of Hillesque living would sort of be attainable.

Lucky Flavored Alcohol

Is the whole concept of Luck
based on anything tangible or fixable other than stars in an inky sky ,
that were present at birth .
Who or what determines the negative or positive flavor of luck . Does skill influence chance .Do you need both to get lucky at Lucky's in Point Pleasant NJ ? Does the name of the town have any say in the matter of what goes on a luck level on its boardwalks ?

Is luck force fed ,or can you choose your luck and what you want your's mixed with. Can you choose how cold or warm / hard or soft / high or low you wanna go? Is it bar or town specific like if you got to the hardcore Irish bars some of them dont have no flavored vodkas just hardcore unflavored vodkas but the more trendy kind of bars like Dave and Busters have the most awesome flavored vodka drink mixes among other flavored alcohol mixes with equally impressive names and descriptions.

My favorite luck story involves a spontaneous weekend in King of Prussia PA. We just picked a random roadtrip destination with a Sheraton to spend a weekend in and a town to explore.Luck was apparently in a really good mood we were right next to the most awesome house of drink and food . They even had a real gazebo with candles and awesome sunset and sunrise views and unobscured views of the King of Prussia main highway .It was at that moment that I knew that Bahama Breeze would totally become my favorite drinking spot in the world other than Peculiar Pub in the village, but they are both totally different moods.Bahama Breeze has the most awesome frozen alcoholic drink mixes perfect for breakfast lunch and dinner substitutes and in between snacks.King of Prussia is a hazy happy memory of really good frozen alcholic drinks awesome sunsets and fireworks displays misssing and an awesome melting ice sculpture and endless hours of hyper happy laughing with roadtripping friend and drinking and highway walking in weaves of laughter sooo much fun .

Peculiar Pub in the village is my other favorite place also found by sheer luck. One of my drinking buddies introduced this place to me and I've had sooo many good talks on the wooden tables with friends and strangers. I just love the general decor and rhythm of the place .They have the most awesome selection of beers from all of the world and they are light enough so you can drink a whole menu of different flavors and not really get too drunk.And the bottles function as the perfect vases on so many levels .

Pollyana's Pick

So if Pollyana had a favorite flower , considering aesthetics and general outlook , I'm guessing it probally would have been the sunflower. Sunflowers just give off that everything will be florally ok aura .And it does have that larger than (floral) life image thing goin on with the everpresent sunny yellow disposition .You almost expect the lovely bloom to break out in an Optimistic Opal song of sunshine and eternal hope singing high above the other floral arrangements ....... Muddied in a world of weeds and Autumn flowers like chrysanthemums which are depressing by mere association of the weather they usually dress up for in their broody colors/ shades and hues of burgundy ,wine, cinnamon gold , ruby red and a semi jaded purple. Autumn is distinctly depressing, up to and including the spent petulant petals of gardens gone by and the perpetual trail of lifeless /loveless leaves consistently losing their balance on the branches of life and falling faster as the air gets colder and brittle with cloudy winter warnings.

How Jaded will you Jade

So I'm walking down one of the many NYC East side avenues with my brilliantly tart & astoundingly erudite buddy ..... completely enraptured in the rapidity of the give and take defining aimless direction , repentance & side effects. And there on the corner in all its faded glory stood the boarded up remains of the "Jade Lounge". How does the Jade Lounge become a boarded up spent wooden structure with only a limited amount of wooden letters to tell the story of the past. Sort of like a makeshift tombstone without any extra specifics other than a name. How easy is it to just close up shop or lounge or bar..... board up the windows to the soul and leave the sign up for good luck and move on for more exciting street corners or cubicles or situations.I've done that so many times sometimes i wonder how healthy it really is .Is there some kind of cumulative side effect thats only felt a couple of years later ...... Its sooo hard to really know when to move on when to try and make things work,when to fix, when to run the other way ,begins to feel like the proverbial game of roullette a game i was never really that good at. Red or black or in this case brown or oak and youve got the green for some sidetracking in case ure feeling especially lucky like some google searchers tend to feel. Its like if you dont work on the structure you have two choices move on or move on and leave the sign up.Or you can re-do the structure and open up a whole new lounge with new lounge furniture and brand new friends and lovers . and a whole different drink mix offering with new names and all the new flavored vodkas . And maybe an in-house care bear to assist the patrons on an as needed basis.For some reason none of my personal figuretive street corners are worth re-doing or working hard on .I havent chosen the wisest street corners to set up shop in .It may have something to do with the fact that I'm spiritually colorblind and stuff.Also way too distracted by humor.I need to think bout the pros and cons before I just settle on a cubicle corner to focus and work for and in .Until then I think i can just make a career out of tanning at the Jersey Shore until the sparkling sun goes down and crystal clear but cold winter sets in .

Hyper-Happy versus No-Happy

Retroactively speaking it never took much to keep my hyper happy levels from sinking lower than hypohappy .Way too many surfacey concepts have consistently ensured that ecstasy( emotion) was a frequent emotional response and ecstatic an often visited state of mind.Mostly though it was a seasonal sort of thing. You could not have found a happier soul, come the christmas holiday season between the lights and the glitter and the sparkle, there was no need for any additional emotional backup for keeping the happiness hyper and consistent. Springtime brought the floral euphoria of weeping pink flowered cherry trees and the everwhere utopia of spring gardens like the pretty in flirtatious purple crocus peeking out of the snow and then you got tulips /hyacinths and daffodils.Summer has the most ethereal rose garden blooming thing goin on especially that first growth where all the roses bloom in unison .English roses have the most awesome petal arrangements and the miniature roses are sooo perfect Then theres the summer fireworks festivals for contemplating fleeting beauty in all its glory . The disconcerting issue thats annoying my everywhere brain is the fact that surfacey concepts are not keeping me as hyperhappy as they used to be doin. Spending my paycheck on scrapbook supplies for scrapbooks that I will be doin when im old gray and tired is not the answer for meaningful preserveration of old memories .Other than clear rubbermaid storage boxes with primary red/ green and blue (glitter pink apparently sold out quickly) lids filled with scrapbooking supplies and other impulse purchases season specific ( for the house I will own one day and eventually decorate per season ) there isnt much in terms of proof of validity on the purchases nor any signs of longterm happiness associated with the cumulative collectings of a consistently increasing number of clear storage bins of glitter/ sparkle/supplies/christmas lights /st patrick good luck charms /dried autumn glitter floral arrangements and wishful thinking all neatly stored in groups of three high. I need to start incorporating real depth /focus/ direction . I need to stop being drawn in to and attracted to the hype and the sparkle and I need to start differentiating between whats real /longterm and hype /shorterm. You cant judge "happy the storage bin" by its lid. even if the lid is pink and sparkly contents may have expiration dates and may not be giving you happiness forever and ever and just becuz a lid is a regular run of the mill primary color like blue it is no reflection on the value of the contents . there is potential happiness in a lot of stuff the trick is not wasting your efforts on the short term only stuff but that doesnt mean the short term happiness is not valid or should not be sorted every once in a while but it should be what your main storage box is full of .

Fading Flowers/ Petulant Petals & Spent Blooms

There is so much ethereal fleeting beauty floating around yet there is just as much pain and suffering ,war and fighting and unhappy souls . So the question of the day is why am I trimming spent rose bush blooms , coaxing petulant petunias to continue growing and creating structure systems for my wayward zinnias ,when I should really be on the next plane to comfort the grieving and the hurt .I wish I knew what g-d really expected of me . The free will thing is just way too ambiguous for my everywhere brain. And the sixty sets of instructions in sixty nine different formats are way too sequential thought processing oriented.Its hard to know where to channel your focuses and emotional energies towards. Is going to work tomorrow to brainstorm on how to refocus wayward work energies and mutually beneficial partnerships for profit margin increasing....... is that what g-d really wants me channelling all my emotional energies towards?Was the sitting on a merry maroon task chair typing on a gregory gray speckled laminate worksurface surrounded by dusky amethyst colored panels with an indirect view of the sky was this predestined and hardcoded in the what willl I be doing and accomplishing for the rest of my life program . I wonder if the colors are hardcoded or would that be part of the free will and free freight program . I spend a certain amount of energy towards altruistic activities and I get free freight on the cumulative sinning baggage that needs to be carried around for life. Or I guess the alternative would be repentance on the past sinnings .Then I wouldnt be needing the free freight for excess baggage. I guess praying would be a good idea .Discipline would probally help and pure and unadulterated altruism needs to be my new focus .

The Sparkle & Glitter of my 2nd most favorite Surfacey concept

Fireworks Displays in general on a global level , have got to be one of the most ethereal /awesome /take your breath away & hyper happy inducing/ thrilling concepts around .Its definitely my second most favorite surfacey concept ( first would be concept of christmas lights and before that A) would be rollercoasters ) .I love love love love love watching and experiencing the thrill and awesome larger than life beauty of really loud and colorful fireworks displays .This year I got to watch one great local town display and then four really awesome displays in Liberty state park .I also bought a twenty dolloar Liberty State Tank top from a guy whose father the park was named after. I also got to listen to the history of liberty state park in addition to fun facts like park will be closed cuz no funding or something to that effect available which is pretty sad .I also had plenty of not kosher candy which may actually be the root source of the tooth ache I woke up this morning with .The not kosher candy concept did not get along with the kosher tooth enamel it came in contact with - so it just decided to chip away at the thin veneer of kosher discipline enamel and teach me a lesson in the form of a tooth ache a painful lesson on many different angles - especially considering the fact that I dont have dental insurance mostly. Anyway back to my Liberty State Park July Fourth experience, so also I heard really awesome never before heard of new talent bands playing some really good stuff . I got to watch Jersey Citys fireworks displays and then the Macys fireworks across the river oh my god they had awesome new concepts this year like cubes and planets made out of sparkling color and some oldies but hearthrobbingly goodies like smilies and bows and stuff and really cool chandelier like concepts .The colors were soooooooo vibrant and hyper happy with enough glitter and sparkle to make any jaded soul reallly reallllly happy. But just surfacey kind of happiness cuz once the glitter and sparkle of dazzling color and noise fades away theres nothing really left except a dark inky black sky with jaded twinkling stars for viewing and posterity purposes. sort of like the superficial glitter and sparkle dust of real life surfacey happenstance .

Zany Zinnias

Zinnias have got to have the best personality you can ask for in a flower . I love the way they just bloom all cheerful and hyper in a total sidetracking everywhere sort of way . No structure or anything. And the more you snap at them the heartier they grow back . And the best part is the colors they wear- funky shades of bright optimism and defined focused color . They take the "bloom where ure planted" adage to a whole new bloom where ure planted and everywhere in between sort of level.It's like they were given a boring menial task of just growing in soil and looking all pretty with potential for snappping off life source for spacing out and acting all cordial in a vase purposes and they just decided they were goin to give this growing in soil task a whole new enthusiastic colorful everywhere sort of perspective. So if your stuck contemplating tedious tasks on a gregory gray speckled laminate desk with modesty panel perched alertly & poised for cordial greetings to potential phone ringers on a corresponding heady shade of burgundy wine fabric task chair , in addition to mostly bein in charge of menial tasks and less than exciting work concepts & lets not forget working off of a cubicle curriculum that could use a little edge and excitement, then the Zinnnia is so the flower you want to be emulating on a personality level in addition to bringing to work on "bring a part of your garden to work day" .You may even decide to cultivate Zinnnias on your cubicle window cubicle opening or general panel ledges for steady in-house reinforcement & encouragemnt purposes- sort of like a spiritual garden buddy .

Jaded Sunsets

There is something so sad and heartbreaking and emotionally final ,regarding the concept of Change. I've always associated the concept of change with final and end of the story.Its soo hard looking back at previous life chapters and just flipping through the pages visiting the characters of years gone by.Its so much easier to just delete the chapters and move on as opposed to flippin back and seeing where why how and what went wrong and fixing end of the story kind of relationships and connections.But the truth is though life is a never ending sort of book and even though you think youve deleted chapters you dont like, they will usually or always re appear in subsequent chapters unannounced like bad houseguests that show up and stay for long periods of time without an invitation eating you out of house and home and then borrowing all your vodka for thirst .So i guess now would be a good time to start goin through the long deleted chapters and fixin connections that went bad for the wrong reasons based mostly on a concentrated mixture of concerted immaturity and pure and unadulterated immaturity.

Footprints in the sands of the past

Literally speaking Sunsets and Sunrises have got to be one of the most awesome concepts around .Figuretively speaking sunrises =new beginnings and sunsets =new endings have got to be one of the hardest concepts to integrate and process .Change is hard and being consistent is even harder after change .Boredom is a close third in the hard to live with category and it soooo messes with choice and consistency.Choice comes in at fourth place. Sticking with decisions rolls right in at fifth place.And alcohol smooths everything out and creates the just peachy euphoria.

"Bitter with baggage seeks same"

So its way back in the depths of December I'm sitting all bleary eyed on the subway one bright early morning jaded and disconcerted and not feeling especially glittery or sparkly-
right before sunrise, goin back to Brooklyn on the endless making all local stops route and I notice that two of my favorite authors/Artists in the world Sloane Tanen and Stefan Hegan have their stuff featured on the subway as subway art .I thought that was way way awesome especially cuz their books (the first one titled "Bitter with baggage seeks same") are so cute and the detail and the content on both the image and the quotes are sheer brilliance . Its always brilliant to find the bright in dim.And it makes the day go by way way happier and more sparkly.

Mind(less) Musings / Emotional Dyslexia

So I found my favorite brain book in the world and read some parts that I originally had skipped (never read a book in order of the chapters its more fun to skip around to the interesting parts sometimes i think thats how my brain is wired in general i dont ever do things in the regular sequential order if i skip around with the steps its sooo much easier to learn sort of like emotional dyslexia cuz i have no choice as skipping around with sequential steps is a default setting on the emotional hard drive like if you give me an issue i can tell you exactly how it came about back to the source , but following orders initially is soooo hard i guess i just learn things backwards ) Anyway its the most awesome profound and fascinating book of all time its called "The mind and the Brain" By Dr Jeffrey Schwartz and Sharon Begley .I focused all my focusing energies on this one chapter called "Free will and Free wont . The Stuff is sheer brilliance and the writing is awesome with some really great analogies .So it discusses what exactly free will is in correlation to destiny and regarding the brain in general .OK given, I need to always do the right thing in any given situation, but is the data already hard coded in the brain wiring and circuitry.Or is free will really an option .Dr Schwartz points out that focusing on the positive can actually change the neural circuits and stuff.and he sort of proves that there is free will involved even though milliseconds before there is some action in the cortex that signifies the response that would be classified as acts of free will ...so is that action /activity in the cortex sort of hardcoded and subsequent act not really free will but predetermined in the hard coded data of the brain wiring .Its a way intense chapter and needs to be like reread a few times to fully comprehend .The concept of free will and destiny was annoying me for past couple of days cuz i know that perspective shapes reality but what shapes perspective .Emotions ? What shapes emotions the brain and its imbalances and chemical levels and circuit systems .Whose in charge of short circuiting and imbalances.Is the brain the power source on everything or is the heart? Are the emotions bossed around by sertonin levels and neurotransmitters? On a brighter note its soo complicated knowing what to put your focus on . Was this Job/Relationship/Friendship/Amusement park visit/affair /screw up meant to be am i supposed to put all my available focusing and concerted energies into make stuff work .How do I know i'm supposed to be making this work .Are screwups hardcoded in the destiny formula .If they are then why not enjoy them or not feel guilty as this was part of the formula and u cant argue with a formula or do u get to change the formula for the same results but different coding or equation of your choice and its all in how u get to the answer ? I always did abhore and detest and definitely dislike Math . So the destiny thing is complicated and not knowing what to focus on is more complicated and having to depend on Adderall to focus is the most annoying part of all. But life is beautiful and roses rock and flowers r way awesome i should totally become a florist or personal gardener on the weekends this way i have productive weekends .maybe i could do the arrangements for large cities like new york i could so make those large clay flower pots on the avenues sooooo pretty and stuff and i could do the holiday decorating in the winter and i get to deal with christmas lights for a living now that would be way awesome so many options so many roads so many tracks so few traveling options and way fewer valid roadsigns and an expired or used train ticket .

The light at the end of the Rainbow

RAINBOWS, have got to be one of the most awesome ,ethereal and magical concepts. I discovered this awesome symbol of infinite color one bleary but almost bright Friday afternoon, when the world just seemed a shade of gregory gray too dark with absolutely no color in sight.It magically appeared out of the cloudy shades of gray sky and helped paint reality in a whole new colorful hyper happy shade of colorful/ infinite opportunity/options light.

Preserving the FUN in dysFUNctionalism

Preserving the Fun in dysFUNctionalism is quite the daunting task, but is definitely the mother of necessity and the father of outrageous creativity.Functionalism is overrated, trite and stale and besides it could get pretty routine-a path that should be avoided at all costs.There R sooo many sidetracking opportunities for cultivating the wildlfowers or sniffing the roses .It's a waste of emotional energy to focus exclusively on the path of functionalism.

If I were a prescription

Accomplishments for last week (always live in the past it helps preserve the fun in dysfunctionlism) include but r not limited to entering and proofreading hundreds of prescription information labels , into a new database .So the obvious profound question is if i were a figuretive prescription what would i consist of . Firstly its the color you sooo want to focus on by default- but like everything in life ,literal color really doesnt say much about the actual purpose/ function or potency of the medication or life in question .Colace is a pretty in gel Ruby red capsule, Prolixin is a happy shade of pink sapphire , Haldol (mg specific) is available in the most awesome light shade of aquamarine .Vitamin E comes ensconced in a glittery golden gelcap .Depakote comes in varying shades of gregory grey /candy pink and tangerine mellow orange depending on the EC versus the ER and also mg specific and Zyprexa Zydus comes in a lemon yellow m tab that melts instantly upon contact .Adderall comes in a heady shade of light blue sapphire and Nexum comes in a pretty in flirtatious purple capsule .Geodon is your run of the mill midnight blue capsule.Seroquel is just a heady shade of white and white .The externals ie the glitter/Color and sparkledust of everday happenstance in life are just general sidetracks. cannot let the packaging/false advertising and marketing persuade or convince or allow for meanderings on the wrong paths . Second point for pondering how excessive did you intend on being with your prescription for life - QID -four times a day TID -three BID-two or OD -once a day are u an early brk breakfaste bird or a late night hs feathered indiviual or an in the middle path pm or lunch goer .another important question for pondering purposes is what actual route did you intend on traveling on - Intramuscularly with minimal pain ,PO - with minimal tasting discomfort and verbal interactions or OU just visual stuff .So many routes ,so many paths its difficult with the choosing . In addition there is always the ever popular how committed are you reallyquestion . There is always the PRN "on an as needed basis" option to fall back on for the committment phobics- if "consistency is a paste jewel only cheap men cherish" then commitment falls right into the same category .... . on a serious level though the trick is to focus on deeper stuff like where am i going and how am i getting there and why did i choose this route in the first place in addition to questions like do i really need a life tour guide to show me the way or can i handle the prescription writing myself without letting the pretty colors and time frames and committments trip me up . Once the prescription is signed youve got to follow the orders or just DC it. "indecision is the key to flexibility" but keeping to the prescriptions in general is usually a good thing though there is room for changes and there is always the option of DCing the original and getting a whole new prescription it just needs the proper authorization and is definitely an awesome check system and focus objective structure to work off of .and it does make life more simple and user friendly when you got the instructions to follow .

Numb as a Bottle of Rum on a Monday Morning ,Adderall part two

The question of the day is how numb and hum drum as a bottle of Bicardi rum on a Monday morning ,will I go for supposed Functionalism aka Adderall . Its always awesome to have enough focus to stop and sniff the roses (such as the pretty in coral one featured here).The question is can one survive without the focus. Is just surviving ok .How robotic,numb and default setting driven am i willing to freeze in the name of medicating for functionalism. In addition to minor, no personality factor to deal with .Is medicating away the personality and driving it far into the sparkly sunset the correct way to channel the excess and wayward emotions of misspent energies and impulses .

How Cold will You Freeze for individuality - A tribute to Adderall

An interview with Crystal the snowflake on her newest Angel in the guise of modest unassuming blue pill named adderralll. Have you ever closely examined the emotional well being and inherent structure of a snowflake. A snowflake in and of itself and a gentle snowstorm of delicate flurries. The basic run of the mill flurry snow storm seems like a great place structured well balanced eco system community to belong to. Go with the flow but follow your icy instincts and you should be ok. But alas upon closer inspection the fragile outweigh the strong and icy. Unfocus snapping and hyper euphoric manic meltdowns r commonplace and unfortunate consistent happenings according to a study coordinated by the icicle Society of snowflake county. So the question remains how do the strong sturdy icicles Maintain their weather permitting rigid solid exteriors while their delicate snowflake acquaintances fall apart emotionally at a mere brush against reality. According to crystal president CEO and all encompassing and all inclusive boss and bosses boss of the icicle society of snowflake county the complex and profound answer, the superglue of fragile egos and emotional equlibriums and unfocused used ecosystems can be found in a highly touted perpetually packaged and definitely not trite acclaimed mixture of amphetamines ensconced in a pale shade of aquamarine with light sapphire hues shades and undertones blue pill. The only known side effect that may effect specific snowflakes of certain fragile emotional components is a distinct loss of individuality. Snowflakes says crystal may indeed find themselves yearning for the mundane and the trite and the desire to be just like every other snowflake. May be followed by timid snowstorms and subsequent abandoning of flake traits specific and unique to the snowflake soul. The general consensus in snowflake county seems to reflect the icicle society adage" a half a snowstorm albeit mas s produced and cookie cutter flake reflecting robotic lacy outlooks is better than a meltdown ie no snowflakes at all." the current life altering perspective changing concept the icicle society of snowflake county is currently trying to warm up to is how generic run of the mill would all you snowflakes tolerate how hard would you work to freeze the distinct balance of individuality for survival at the risk of snapping. How cold will you freeze for individuality

Ethereal Shades of Perpetual Pink Topaz....

There is nothing like a , shades of Perpetual Pink Topaz and Purple Misty Quartz Sunset for facilitating in the think pink and out of the sink especially when youre in a fink perspective on stuff.

"Candy is Dandy but Liquor is Quicker"

If ure feeling slightly unfocused and need some color in your life .Dave and Busters is your all encompassing all inclusive answer for achieving the balance and inner equilibrium . They definitely have the most awesome tasting drinks and the colorful presentation is equally impressive.